Saturday, 23 June 2012

June 22nd, 2012




Friday, was Juby's due date.
And it basically passed like any other day.

My husband and I visited Jubilee's grave last weekend (still no headstone and it was supposed to be well and truly up by now, in time for her due date), and  we did not feel to go again so soon.  We had pizza afterwards which is our special little tradition for when we lose a baby- we always get pizza on the way home so we don't have to cook- so we had that in memory of the day when she was actually born. We decided that whilst it was her due date, we weren't going to get too hung up on it.  We feel her birthday will be more of date for us celebrate.  I honestly believe that I would not have made it to full term anyways and have been dealing with the whole "she could have been born now" thing for many weeks. I feel it is also a sign that whilst we will forever remain saddened by the loss of our precious little girl, you do eventually begin move on: the pain never lessens but it becomes easier to manage as the months pass. I think Jasey helped us to realise that too: people where still coming up to us and saying sorry for our loss and I felt like blurting out- "thanks but we're okay, we've lost another baby since then anyway." So much happens in a short space of time.

Thankfully, I had the day off work. So I spent it with my sister, Sarah, Mum and Granny at my sisters Sports Carnival. It was a really great day and was full of sentiment for our family. We worked out that since I started at the school, we have had at least one child there for 18 years. As Sarah is in year 7, is out last year at the school; and hence our last Sports Day. All six of us were Sports Captains in our respect years (and Jake was for two years in a row). Sarah wore all our badges on her shirt as a special tribute :-) cute.

Probably the cutest thing, was Rachel and Sarah working together, before they left for school, to write 'Juby Knott' in her house colour, on the inside of Sarah's forearms. So beautiful.

Later in the afternoon, I caught up with my good friend Toni and her little baby, Kimmi, for a coffee. That was really special cos Toni is the only person outside my immediate family who got to meet Jubilee in the flesh; so that was a nice reminder for both of us.

Many family members remembered the day and rung or sent a text to let us know they were thinking of us which was lovely also.

Thanks again everyone, for your support!

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